Mindset and Pushing Limits

Alright, so it has been a long time (maybe years…) since I have written on here. A lot has happened over this time and the focus of this page is going to have quite the shift. Although I would like to bring some Peace Corps reflection in here from time to time.

I am going to be focusing more on my current dailys, hobbies, thoughts and plans. It’s the end of summer here in Salt Lake and we are hopefully starting to see the light at the end of this heat tunnel ( I guess that’s desert-life and at least the mountains have been wonderful). Quick life update: I am currently doing the overly-hip #vanlife thing but I like to think of it as a reflection on my modest Peace Corps life- who needs all the extra amenities? Not as easy and glamorous as it may look- the van-life thing when its 100 degrees and you have to find a cat-sitter everyday. That said- I’m loving the simplicity, being mainly off the grid and being able to travel with my house- filled with all my things! In the job world, I am working as a personal trainer at The Front Climbing Club for not only rock climbers but trail runners, mountain sports athletes, skiers/snowboarders, and the general population. In addition, I am an Exercise Specialist at Huntsman Cancer Institute at The University of Utah. I have been spending most of this summer running the mountains and squeezing in some climbing when I can.

OK, enough on the life update, I want to talk about “Mindset and Pushing Limits”.

As my hip is getting strong from my surgery last August, I have dedicated this summer to #pushingpeaks and running short steep races with the Discrete Cirque Series. These races force you to kick it into high gear and has lead to a lot of reflection on why and how I do this.

What powers you through your race?

I have been thinking a lot on what drives me through a race. What helps me to get past the pains or the down moments or the negative thoughts?

So much of endurance sports or pushing your limits comes from the mind. Yeah your training is important but there is more to it. This keeps coming to me, as my training has never been what it should, due to the years of pain before hip surgery and now still on the recovery road.

Why have I had successes? What allows this?

It comes from the brain. I have my parents partially to thank from the early years, for challenging me to push through tough moments and figure things out on my own. It’s important to fail- that is where the learning comes in. Part comes from my Peace Corps experience, going back in time and stepping out of modern society- no electricity, no road, no cell service, no running water.  In Peace Corps I served as a Water, Sanitation, and Hygiene Specialist, living in a rural indigenous village in Panama. If there was a problem there was no google or mom and dad to solve it- it all came from the noggin and patience. And part just comes from my pure passion for activity and drive to see what I can do- knowing pain is temporary.  I listened to a podcast recently about the power of not having negative thoughts – even during your runs. So what your foot hurts? So does everyone else- but thinking or speaking about it will only intensify it. This is not something I have mastered yet but has but something that is being incorporated into my thoughts and actions. By not letting yourself think anything is wrong- you can fool the body! How do you think people run 100+ miles? More on how this is going in the future- just some food for thought now!

Feels Like Home

Feels as if I never left… Here are a few more photos of the day before I head on to the next country! Enjoy 🙂

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Got to play a game with my Ngabe soccer team. We had some cool Argentinian-themed jerseys donated for the playoffs.  These girls are about the the toughest around and for sure almost have my back when I get thrown to the ground 🙂 These wonderful young ladies went on to take second in the tournament!
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The beautiful view of the rock Peña Blanca from the “infinity pool” discovered by one of my good Peace Corps friends.  The community members always think we are a little crazy to hike up there for “fun”. But how could we resist going to this magical spot!
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A little afternoon Slackline practice. Beautiful view, also we weren’t so alone with the herd of cows grazing near by.
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The gorgeous rays coming through the clouds as we pop up out of the jungle onto this vista. And of course had some kiddos and dogs come along too!
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This is a picture of another indigenous group im Panama, the Embera performing a traditional dance for us. This little girl on the end was a hoot, she was definitely marching to her own beat while yelling out to her little throughout the performance 🙂 Part of their traditional is to paint their skin with the native fruit, jagua.

 

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Got to be tía Eti for the day.  Its fun to see one of my Peace Corps friends who has started a family in Panama City.  This is his beautiful little boy James!

 

Migration

This migration is my return to Panama. I never did write a summary or a final post about my Peace Corps experience but I figured the fact that I am back a year later to visit says a lot about how I ended my friendships in all parts of Panama, including my community of Salitre in La Comarca Ngabe Bugle.

During my current adventure I am taking a photo of the day, so here are a few to get this blog going again!

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This is the very unique basalt rock in the mountain town of Boquete.  The local climbers like to snag pictures of the “Batman hang” when coming down on belay! Such a wonderful climbing community that will always have a place in my heart and keep dragging me back to Panama!
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Had such a wonderful time going back to see my old Peace Corps community.  In my last few months the government started a bridge project so that the community members and especially teachers and students can cross the river in the rainy season to get to the school in the next town. All materials had to be flown in by helicopter.  Well it is finally finished and the Panamanian President even came to bless the bridge and celebrate.
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Getting my hair braided and taking selfies at the sleepover 🙂
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Have to thank the hound dog for this dinner.  Conejo pintado (spotted rabbit) tastes kind of like chicken and always makes for a special meal whether boiled or fried.
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There are a lot of contrasts in this picture. It kind of portrays the western influence on the rural village. Within their stick house they have a computer in which they don’t have power to charge, but all kids still enjoy a pet! They found this little gal without a mom.

 

Coast to Coast

 

5 day hiking trip from one ocean to another made possible by Panama. The large majority of this through the natives, Ngäbe Buglé’s reservation (comarca). It has been a dream of mine basically since I arrived in my community and fell in love with the naturaleza and investigation of this native culture. I decided I wanted to hike the width of the reservation, going from the Chiriquí side (where I live) to the Bocas del Toro side on the Caribbean. After staring at the map of Panama pegged to the wall of my house so many times, I decided I wanted to add an extra element to the adventure: ocean to ocean.

On April 30, we woke up to the sun rising up over the Pacific Ocean ( which also does not happen in too many places), with our feet in the water at our beloved local beach Las Lajas and set out for the Caribbean. The first day was most certainly the least adventurous but is where the most miles were put in. We hiked along the flat paved road. We had a beautiful cloudy morning, which made for a pleasant morning passing by the farms and cow pastures, through the town of Las Lajas and into my “hub” town of restocking and refueling, San Felix. From there we continued along the road finally crossing over the bridge to what is officially “la comarca”. Now begins my second goal of the trip, walking through the reservation. We stay the night at our Peace Corps buddies’ house which happens to be along our way, who not to mention had a very special guest visiting, his dad! They spoiled us with a few good meals and we were set to leave in the morning.

Except one problem, our guide who lives farther up along the path and was suppose to meet us there, had not showed. 8,9,10,11 o’clock has gone by. So we make a decision to go for it. We hoped to take the trail to the town of Chami where the guide lives but instead we were forced to continue along the road. Up we started to go, climbing up and up so that the following day we could pass over the mountain range. Winter here had just begun so we faced some having rain storms, at least keeping us cooled off. There was some spectacular views along this way and a lot of surprised people to hear what the gringos were up too. We get into our destination just after dark, finding our guide there as well. We get dinner at a small family restaurant, hang up our hammocks, and sleep until dawn.

Day 3:
Today is the big day heading over the top of the mountain range toward Bocas del Toro. Up and up we climb through the rain and cool climate. As our guide correctly pointed out the sun is shining when we reach the top and are greeted with a spectacular view of the towns below. We finally get off the road and begin our trek through creek beds and narrow paths, not even the horses can make it through parts of it. Stopping for a break along the way we found some chichitre (kiddos) playing some footie. My friend Sean and I jump in, knocking the ball around we eventually scored a few goals before realizing that may not have been the objective of these kid’s game. The goal opened up to the river so if you scored a goal someone would have to go chase after it down river! Oops, at least I showed them girls can play soccer too! It proved to be a long but breathtaking day. As we are starting to tire and think we must be getting close we get passed by some teachers, booking it, hiking to work! They graciously give us the details of the rest of that day’s hike and tell us we can set up camp that night in one of the school classrooms. 👌We roll into town as dusk is upon and finally get a a chance to go swimming/bathing in the river we had been criss crossing all day. Just the doctor’s orders! We bought some food at the local store, rice and lentils and found a family to cook for us. To us Peace Corps volunteers, always with an appetite, the stores were one of the great excitements/surprises of the trip. Comparative to the store in my community which generally has about 10 different items the people bring in on horses, these stores were HUGE! And not to mention horses don’t go out this far and farther. Everything is brought in a chakra (large woven bag from string) on their heads!!! Super impressive and hard working these people are.

Day 4: Headed out towards a community called Quebrada Negra, 10ish hours either direction from a car/boat transportation. Another beautiful day hiking along the river through fields of ginger. We arrive to our destination with time to spare. Bought some beans and green bananas for a women to cook up for is for dinner and off to the river we went. Epic swim spot! Plenty of rocks to jump off, climb up and wash our clothes on. If I had to pick a town this would be mine. Hung out with some kiddos who were teaching us more of their language, Ngäbere and we taught them how to play frisbee.

Day 5: Last day of hiking, headed to the “city” of Kankintu. Early start with what turned out to be an 11 hour day ahead of us. Starting the day off by climbing our “last significant hill” that is what our guide had told us, if only that was halfway true. From there we continue to and from the river, up and down the mountain, and in and out of the jungle. Around lunch time we arrive in the lovely school town of Coronte. Here there is a large river crossing, the only way across besides swimming would be with el capitan and his dug out canoe. A hunched over old man with silver hair and his skin, blackened and wrinkly from the constant sun of his job. As far as we know, for years this man has shuttled students and community members to and from day after day and maybe even without pay? We arrive as the second round of students are going to school (the only school that at least goes to 9th in quite a few miles) so there is a long crossing line. While waiting under a tree, we hear the sound of a helicopter, to our surprise it was coming over us. Based what we have seen in the movies, we would have thought we were in Vietnam during the war based on the style of helicopter and the surrounding land. The helicopter ended up landing in front of the school to take away a sick teacher. We continue on through the hot day, not being able to take in the surroundings as much as we would like so that we could arrive before dark. Booking it along the path, feeling as if I had star power from Mario Kart for a while and being greeted with ñantoro jämräka, (hey friend in Ngäbere) due to me wearing their traditional dress (nagua). We do all finally make it in before dark. We arrive to the most devolved town in the reservation. Out of the jungle appears a side walk and then electricity and local man offers up him beautiful green wood house to stay the night in. We enjoy fish and fried plantations from the restaurant for dinner. A lovely way to round out the trip. The next morning we are set to head out in a motor boat to Bocas del Toro.

All seven of us arrived with spirits alive and some damage to our feet from having to hike most of the trip in calf high rubber boots. Feeling on top of the world now as we have a little better understanding of the culture, way of life, language, and nature of the Ngäbe-Bugle’s, ready to go back to our own community’s to share our experiences with them!

Mä niki ño? Where are you going?
Nun tä nain mrente, Kankintute. We are going to the ocean, the town of Kankintu.

Ñobta? Why?
Nun tä kä mike gare jai: We are going to understand the land.
Ahhhh kuin: Ohhhh good!

Soggy Naguas

In march I had a visit from my cousin Preston (Pesto) and my best friend Lauren (Lorena). So I am going to mix things up and share their stories and pictures of panama.

Preston:

Vamos a la Playa

I can remember one interaction with a Panamanian that was less than cordial. And that guy wasn’t even mean or nasty – he was just curt. That’s it. Every other person that we interacted with, on buses, in restaurants, while hanging from a rock wall, was exceedingly nice, and happy to help a group of gringos. Of course, it helped to have a de facto local leading our motley crew, but we were still clearly outsiders in this world. And we were treated as friends everywhere we went. I’m not even proficient at speaking Spanish, and our Uber driver the first morning definitely recognized that. But he didn’t think twice about quickly rerouting our trip when he realized that we needed to be taken to Albrook bus station, not Albrook airport. I would’ve forgiven him for being grumpy or laughing at us, but he smiled and charged us an obscenely low fare as a reward for our ignorance. That’s what I call service with a smile.

The people are what makes this country special. They guided us on a rock climbing expedition for free, and helped us to negotiate a hostel booking snafu during the busiest booking season of the year. They conducted a thoroughly engaging, Spanish-only Easter Sunday mass. They took us to a karaoke bar, and after we thoroughly embarrassed ourselves, they rewarded us with sympathetic applause. Most importantly, they proved to love laughter just as much as everyone else in the world. It turns out that funny things are pretty universal. Making animal sounds back and forth with a small child is always funny. Watching Erin sleep with her head cushioned against the metal frame of a bouncing chiva is absurd and hilarious, even if (especially if?) you don’t know her. And, of course, watching/listening to people bomb at karaoke is never not a good time.

 

Lauren:

Vamos a Panamá

 

I will never forget my adventure to Panamá. But really, I have the scars to prove it. This trip was one of the most enriching and challenging experiences of my life thus far – and I am so grateful for Erin joining the Peace Corps and giving me this opportunity!

While I won’t go into detail of the ten days spent in the country, I will touch on what I enjoyed most, what was the most challenging, what was the most surprising and what I have taken home with me.

One of the things that I enjoyed most was the journey into Salitre. The ride down the mountain in the chiva (back of a pick-up truck with 25 other Ngäbe people) was so much fun. It was like riding a roller coaster with a really cool view. What followed was a very challenging 2-hour hike/stumble down a mountain! The view was amazing, despite me reaching the bottom of the mountain with some extra cuts and bruises.

The two days that we spent in El Campo were the most eye-opening. It is incredible to learn how the indigenous people of the Comarca Ngäbe-Buglé live. The Ngäbe do almost everything that we do on a daily basis, only in a primitive manner. They choose to live secluded lives although modern societies dwell within a very short distance. All of the Ngäbe people were curious about us and interested in meeting us. They were more friendly than I had anticipated, welcoming us into their homes.

One of the most challenging aspects of this adventure was sticking out among the crowd and not knowing the language, although we rocked our Naguas – the traditional dress of the women in the Comarca. I have lived my life always surrounded by people just like me and experiencing the feeling of being different gave me a new-found respect for those who spend their lives as minorities in areas that they are not accustomed to or comfortable in.

Although our time in El Campo is something I will always cherish, my favorite place that we traveled to was Boquete. I had a wonderful time “surfing” and drinking Soggy Naguas at Playa Venao and exploring Casco Viejo/ the Canal in the City, but it was so nice to spend some time in the mountains – away from that jungle heat!

The best part of Boquete, for me, was when we went rock climbing. This is something that I have always wanted to try and I finally faced my fears and climbed to the top – It was chicha de piña! We were also able to enjoy a cold beverage, or three, at the Boquete Brewing Company.

In addition to all of the new activities that I experienced, I would be remiss if I did not mention the FOOD of Panama.  While every single thing we ate was amazing, my favorites would have to be the following:

  • Manzanas – The most delicious banana I will ever eat.
  • Holjadras – Panamanian fry bread and the perfect 25 cent treat after a 2.5-hour mountain hike.
  • Patacones – Fried plantains, best paired with cerveza.
  • Pifa – A yummy little fruit that served as the perfect bus ride snack.
  • Seviche – We have this at home, but it was extra special as we enjoyed it at the Fish Market in Panama City.

Needless to say, I will forever remember this trip and the wonderful memories that were made. Thank you Erin for hosting me and showing me what Panama is all about.

Chao pesca’o!

 

The Soccer Camp “Weekly Top Ten”

During the first week of February I held a young girls soccer and development camp in my regional capital. With the help of 9 other female Peace Corps volunteers and the spirited participation of 30, 10-14 year old girls from all around the Ngäbe Buglé reservation we had a successful pilot camp. With several Panamanian invitees including, the governmental health agency, the mayoress, Association for women Ngäbe Buglé, and Peace Corps Panama’s youth development coordinator, the girls learned many topics both in the classroom and on the field. This camp was the first of hopefully many program sponsored by Let Girls Learn in Panama, a Michelle Obama initiative to expand access to education for girls around the world. So here is the Sports Center Top 10 from the week!

10. Busting open the door on the dead bolted and pad locked dormitories so we would have somewhere to sleep the first night. Still weren’t enough beds so it lead to extra quick bonding!

9. Nutrition charla: seeing the reaction of some of the girls when we demonstrated how much sugar is in soda, cookies, etc. and how it adds up in a day! Hopefully that stuck a bit…

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Itzela, in her traditional dress, giving me a learning smirk during the lecture.

8. Presentation from the Association for Women Ngäbe Bugle on women’s rights, abuse, and violence. The facilitator had all the participants divide into groups and present on each of these topics. The girls did an excellent job and provoked some good questions.

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Senora Raiza from ASMUNG being a boss and inspiring things young girls!

7. Wonderful cooking crew! We had some awesome locals helping out with cooking and security.  All the meals were wonderful and on time.  Kept the girls active and in high spirits all week! Nun bule kri (we had big bellies, or in other words were full all week 🙂 )

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Men in the kitchen, girls on the soccer field! Defying gender norms!

6. One World Play Project: we did a campaign to fund-raise a special type of soccer ball designed to last on rugged terrain. An average ball only lasts a few weeks here! The excitement on their faces when they found out they each got to take a ball home was unforgettable!

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Carmen in a dribbling relay race with her very own One World Play soccer ball.

5. Circle of Support: this is an activity we did to build trust and promote teamwork. Each team formed a circle, holding hands and then laid down on their backs. A circle was drawn on the ground just inside their heels and then a stick was laid above each of their heads. Then they all got up and had to stay inside the circle and reach their own stick. It is impossible to do on your own and you need your teammates to help lift you. It was super cool seeing each team problem solve and little by little trust their teammates not to drop them to reach their goal. Lots of laughter and smiles!

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4. Spirit of the game. At the end of the day, we would form a circle and each girl had to say something nice about the girl on their left. The first day was very challenging but by the last day they were congratulating and supporting each other and the facilitators on their own!

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3. During the final game one of the girls got hit in the face and her teammates, took her in their arms and walked her off the field. Learning sportsmanship!

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Host sister, Yaqueline running away with the ball, water bottle in hand!

2. Gusanito: this is an interactive song about a little worm. Here is how it would go in English:
I am walking, I see a worm, I grab the worm, I lift up the worm, I throw the worm, I step in the worm, I grab the worm, I eat the worm, I vomit the worm, I feel relaxed, relaxed, relaxed. Complete with gestures and in fast and slow motion. Always gets everyone energized!

1. Openness and participation:it was awesome seeing how much all the girls opened up during the week. Answering and asking questions during the lectures, throwing away the shyness on the soccer field and passing to their teammates (well a few times at least), and all the new friendships formed!

What an excellent week! Hope to be able to do a follow up camp and will be seeking your support. In the mean time if you wan to learn more about Let Girls Learn or would like to donate to the program, follow this link! Panama is new Let Girls Learn country, so the Panama bio is not yet up on the website.

https://letgirlslearn.peacecorps.gov/countries.html

 

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All smiles and laughs!
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The facilitators getting in on the action too!
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Attentively watching the defense demonstration!

The “Junta”

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Ya viene la lluvia: nu kite tibien: The rain is coming

 

 

 

It is now the heart of rice harvesting. The rainy season is nearing its end. The three month rice has been harvested and the five and six month are in progress. My community members are all hard at work to get it all done, being they are subsistence farmers. My gente have a very special way of planting and harvesting in large numbers. It’s called the junta.

 

Junta literally means meeting or council, but to them it’s much more. The premise is that if someone comes to your work event then you must return the favor, all based on the honor system. You don’t want your neighbors and family to think badly upon you! They call this pagar el peón or paying the laborer. If four members of one household come to my work day then I better send 4 of my household to their work day! Juntas can be a lot of fun but are hard work.

The host family shows up to the farm nice and early and makes sure everything is ready to go. The workers slowly trickle in around 9 or 10 o’clock. For harvesting rice each person bring their own little ax to cut the rice stalks. Once all have arrived, the row is complete as everyone works forward cutting down the rice until it’s done, gets to dark, or rains to hard for too long! Throughout the day the patrón or boss bring around a 5 gallon container filled with chicha de maíz or corn juice, with two large cups for everyone to chug out of! This way it’s food and drink in one and they can work all the way through without lunch. (It’s takes me more time to drink a half glass then they do a full one 🙈) Throughout the day, in Ngäbere (their native language) everyone shares gossip, stories, and laughter. Me only understanding bits and pieces, but getting a lot of a smiles and laughter when I make an occasional joke in Ngäbere or get stuck in some weeds. Even when I only understand half of what is going on, it’s a welcoming feeling working side by side with my people. I had a special moment when I dropped my little ax in the rice and once everyone realized what had happened, immediately 6 people around me start looking for my tool until it was found! No questions asked.

When the day comes to an end most everyone leaves with a smile and some yell/yodels of joy. Time for some free food! How else could you get people to work hard all day…? Back to the house of the boss, where food is ready (generally cooked all day by the woman of the house 😞). What I find so funny is there is a traditional after junta meal. First you get a really brothy soup flavored with something from a cheap packet and a root vegetable. You will normally find a little bit of chicken, killed from the patio that morning. Then each person gets a giant leaf filled with cooked rice to take home with them, known as a lonche. I know my cat loves these days because he also gets a little bit of chicken and a bunch of rice (due to their HUGE rice portions)🐈⬅️😃. This completes a junta but a lot of work lies ahead for the host family as they have to go through all the steps of preparing the rice! But that is basically a blog in its self!

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Meet Xenia. She doesnt like to speak Spanish but she will sure talk your ear off! She never is without her machete either.
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This is the take home rice wrapped in a leaf that everyone gets after helping out!
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Harvesting rice with views of Cerro Patena and Cerro Madera in the near distance
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This is the little axe used to harvest the rice
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A rice tower bigger than all the people!
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My friend insisted that I needed a picture with me in it to show everyone at home. So here is Eti harvesting rice too!

Just Another Day at Work

5:30 am I wake up and roll out of my hammock. I put some water on the stove to boil for my coffee. Drink some coffee, make some oatmeal, feed my cat and chickens, lock the house, and hit the path out of site. 1 hour 12 minutes later and 1500 vertical ft I make it up to my road. Time to wait for the chiva, a caged in pick up truck, that takes me to town. Today’s a little different tho, when the chiva comes it’s filled with a women’s soccer team. Doesn’t look like your average soccer team, they all have brightly colored dresses on and hair brushed hanging all the way down their backs. Ohh and the mayoress is sitting shot gun, dressed the same as well. When we get to town the rest of the team meets us there, we pile in and head to the field. Half the girls have to be commanded (by the mayoress nonetheless) to take off their naguas and put on some shorts and a t shirt. Not the average pre-game talk.

It was an incredible day.  To see these young women break out of their shells and transform into soccer players beneath my eyes was astonishing.  Almost, as if they become different people on the soccer field.  Now they didn’t have all the talent in the world but you could not fault them for their aggressiveness and drive on the soccer field.  I was playing forward with them and was fortunate enough to be playing along side the two most talented players on the field.  It was a tournament of four teams.  We dominated our first game against another Ngabe team from a different region and we were quickly through to the championship.  Now talk about a well competed and intense soccer match. I still can’t believe what a game it was. 1-1, halftime, 2-1, 2-2…. With one minute left in the game my teammate slide tackled the ball into the goal for a GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLL and the win.  We were presented with a trophy and some great memories. Oh and a sore body from the triple teaming haha…I was one of the tallest players on the field, which lead to some good header goals (being tall is fun!)

So you are probably a little curious about the title of this blog. How was this just another day at work? Seems like a day of play? Maybe a vacation day? This actually falls under my peace corps goals and is just as much considered work as building a latrine in my community.  The second goal of Peace Corps is the host country (Panama) understanding Americans and the third goal is teaching Americans about Panama.  By me showing my confidence playing soccer, in shorts and a t-shirt nonetheless, and that it is okay to express yourself and take leadership as a women, I am sharing my culture with my people.  Not only am I demonstrating this to my teammates but also to the fans, especially the men. Now goal three, I am doing that right now. I am teaching ya’ll about Panamanians.

Tourney champs!
Tourney champs!
The forwards :)
The forwards 🙂
The mayor and me
The mayor and me

Elige Tu Vida: Choose your Life

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Safe sex, condom practice
Safe sex, condom practice

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Elige Tu Vida is a youth development workshop that provides young adults with the inspiration, motivation, and skills to make healthier and more informed life choices. It guides them to identify their own personal values and strengths. The students are taught that they are in the driver seats of their life and are encouraged to imagine what they want their life’s to look like in the future and to create goals to work towards. The second segment of the workshop is information on the reproductive health and the risks and consequences to unprotected sex.

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Imagine yourself when you were in fifth grade. An awkward time right? Can you remember your teacher’s name? Or the class clown? Okay, now picture yourself in your sex ed class. But instead of your normal teachers, there is a group of foreigners with funny accents, making you play some silly games. Ohh and of course, imagine the shyest version of yourself ever possible, scared to even stand up and say your name and where you live… This is an Elige Tu Vida in the Comarca Ngäbe Buglé.

This was one of those terribly awesome experiences. Where at times I am thinking are we going to make it through? Or are we really going to have to draw another name out of the “hat” to get a person to answer? And then the next minute the whole class dying of laughter from a gringo doing a skit or having them play a game, to turn what’s on paper into real life.

Elige Tu Vida is a constantly developing template designed by Peace Corps Panama volunteers ourselves as a part of a Gender and Development group. Any volunteer can take the template, invite a few more volunteers to their community (or nearest school) and give this one day workshop for 6th to 10th graders. I just recently gave this workshop to 6th graders in my nearest primary school and invited the other volunteers in my district to come help and hang out at my house for a few days. We plan to also give this workshop multiple times to a high school that several of our communities share in the upcoming months.

For Ngäbe kids it can be hard to read them at times and realize if they are getting anything out of what your are telling them or not because they are not a very expressive by nature. Therefore, every little smile or unprompted response really shows that they are soaking in as much as possible. Many times whenever I have given seminars, to both kids and adults, I thought they did not care a lick about what I was saying. Until I go to their house a month or two later and they quote something I said during my workshop or I see them putting what they learned in action. This is a million times more rewarding in the end. So when I go to a kids house next month and see them filling out the goal page in their workbook or when someone comes to my house asking to remind them how they can get free condoms, that is when I’ll feel like this 😃and like this👍 and maybe 😊 and 🙏